we'll all float on ok

trying to get ur life in order is about the hardest thing to do ...

u have to wake up early

u have to scarifice sleeping

u have to wear uniforms

u have to wake up early

tahst about the thing taht pains me the most really... mornings are not my thing

such great heights

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home


everything does look perfect from far away.....

i love this song - i wish i could some how stream it here

god i miss the pope!!!!!

U know when u feel like ur gonna have a hohum, dull, dry, unmanageable day... much like and/or because of ur hair, and u feel like ..."mmm i wish something would just literally pick me up and dunk me in ice water and wake me up cuz it's hella boring!!" kinda day and all of a sudden something truly unexpected does happen and u can't stop thinking about it and when u do think back on it it just makes u sooo happy it happened.

the other day i was talking to a friend about how i miss everything and everyone back in pinas when all of a sudden i have no idea, where he was coming from but he said..... god i miss the pope!!! i tried sooooo hard not to laugh and have a straight face that i kept staring at his nose!!! because right after the "god i miss the pope " comment he went on about how u dont see him that often or as i would now relay to u verbatim-ly... " kse, u don't see a whole lot of the pope na eh!! i mean he doesn't even visit!!" and said that in the most serious way a person could ever say anything!!! period. and then after i was still trying to be all polite and nodding like i understood what the hell he was feeling about the pope, but deep inside i was like... "wuthefucker u talkin about i miss the pope ?" why?... and he goes like " he should go around more often in his motorcade!!"... and that time i couldn't help it cuz he was really looking at me like ...say something sorta look so i said..."(gulp)well wasn't he sick , like recently?"( and this time trying sooooooooo hard not to even smile but couldn't and may have giggled just a teensy bit!!) and he was still serious but kinda noticing that i giggled cuz he looked at me like "are u ok? " kinda look. and then he replied.. "yeah, oo nga! pero god i still miss the pope!!!"... shit what drugs are u on ??? hahahahhahahahahahahhahaa i was biting my lip so that i wouldn't laugh!!... i was hoping like he'd have to go or something would happen so i can just burst out laughing.... and thank goodness for french fries other wise the topic would ahve continued... and what was funny was we were soo talking about shoes!!! and then he missed the pope!

new year

2004 just whizzed by i think... im getting really old and the days just keep getting shorter and shorter.
you know how when ur a kid and you think the days just wont end when u want it to end.. or that waiting for ur mother to finish shopping so u can go on with the rest of ur life and u think god what i'd give so she'll be over... well now i think things get faster and faster that sometimes i wish for time to just stop.. completely

ok i believe in resolutions i do,,, theyre goals... and people should set goals... it makes u more responsible.. more accountable for ur actions as a person... but i dont believe in sharing my resolutions out loud... i find it just messes me up. hehhee but i do have them ... and so far ive been following it... seeming as it just has been a day.. but i know im off to a good start :P

speakin of goals... i've got a new project with a friend of mine called the "USI PROJECT" for a lack of a better.. more suitable name... we just thought.. hey let's just be direct... its a semi comparative visual west of the world east of the world photography challenge.. i feel very excited about it... we did our "pilot-post" .. hehehe yesterday! comments are welcome and also contributors. the object is 4 pics every saturday of a certain word.. sort of like a he said she said on pixels and film ehehehe
livejournal.com/usi_kami


i'm tired of this dumb old template .. i think i'll change it

its scary when u realize its true

had a dream... i died... i dunno how .. i think i was killed... brought to london...and all of a sudden im in an elevator with a bunch of other people...i dunno why.. i assume my killers brought me to london ....elevator going up and side ways... a bunch of people were with me and we went side ways.... i was with a nun a school girl .. some moms .. i dunno if there were dudes...any way.. we were going up and then they told me to hold their hands cuz we had to turn around liek a merry go round and i realized that we had to do that as to not hit teh big ben... ... but still even when we turned the elevator scratched the big ben...im like asking them people what just happened and this nun said .. hunny u r dead...and i said.. oh .. wow thats gonna need getting used to...and they all laughed and smiled...but it still hasnt dawned to me tha i was dead.. i passed it off as a comment....and so i said take me home...and we were at our old house in manila... and suddenly my mom just asked me .. where've u been....and i told her what teh nuns told me.. i was at london and i died there...and my family were like.. oh.. ok...we ate dinner .. we talked...and funny we all went to my mom's room and just like when i was 5 when i wanted to snuggle with my mom.. me and my brothers were all teher....tehy treated me like i was alive ...so we all slept in one bed... my dad was at teh very end then my my mom, then my kid brother, then my kuya then me...and like as i lay down on the bed .. i realized .. fuck im so dead.. i dont feel tired...i wasnt hungry but i ate...and then i just cried ... i cried a lot.. and i screamed.. and i realized that when i pulled my slef up and tried to squish in between my mom and my kid brother i couldnt and no one can hear me screaming....when i pulled my slef up with great force i floated.. and that just made me feel ill... and then i screamedsome more and tahst when it hit me taht death is ireversable...


... i woke myself up and when i woke up i saw everything was the same i was all teary and i asked my brother if i was alive and he looked at me funny... i took a long cold shower.

u're once, twice, three times a lay-deh!!

what is up with julie andrews.. i feel like everytime i see her i have this strange urge to call her "ur majesty!" i mean really. i feel like a courtsey is required.

so this morning( cuz again i have not slept yet therefore i consider this day still part of yesterday)christmas morning, was strangely enough a julie andrew marathon type of day... every channel has her in some form or another. i saw her old cinderella movie in the 1940's or something and then again at night, the freakin sound of music. basically this whole day i spent watching tv. i borrowed dvds and watched the big miami/la bball showdown against kobe and shaq, stuffed myself on tempura and walked around the area in shorts and a white pashmina at 54 degrees outside. sometimes the cold can really get u in perspective.

so i watched napoleon dynamite... that has got to be the most weirdly bizarre form of an endearing movie i ever saw.its sweet.and hella funny.

it's beginning to feel a lot not like christmas

and so as my title goes... begins the premise of the blog.
DECEMBER... was the month... the 14th was the date...
and the mood was less than festive and more .... whats a good word to describe it...
BLAH!

it's funny cuz as soon as halloween ended, the people here can't wait to decorate for christmas. and now that it is literally days away i feel.... nothing

ok i'm not going all charlie brown and the great christmas special on u folks with crap about christmas spirit and joy and bliss and faith and shit like that. i'm not gonna buy a ratty old flimsy freakin tree and decorate it to show the true meaning of christmas. im just stating the fact that i actually think that i am literally gonna be able to skip christmas this year.

this conclusion is what i have come up with after analyzing events that have happened during the past week and a half.

exhibit a: or as i like to call it " snow no go"
the weather was soo fu---annoying it started to snow mid to late november and then yesterday it was 85 degrees and people were wearing tanks and shorts and flip flops
truly weather affects the mood... how can u walk in a winter wonderland and let it snow without the actual snow?
u can't go dashing through the snow in a one horse open sleigh now... it's gonna be more like dashing through mud and getting ur sleigh stuck on slush. and no one has ever said anything about christmas mud.

exhibit b: work
i mean it's so horrible i can't even think of a good tag line for it. the worst thing about work isn't actually the work im doing but the people i work with :(and the fact that i might actually ahve work christmas day really isnt boosting my whole holiday morale.

exhibit c: "the chicken is leaving the building"
my brother is moving to indiana on january... so were actually preparing more for his leaving rather than the holidays... and whathefuck who goes to the midwest on winter? i mean really, it's literally braving fuckin 20 inches of snow!!

and finally exhibit d: i haven't had a vacation in 2 years...i mean like a real real vacation so i guess im all bent out of shape. im creatively dry and i feel like a glow worm who didnt get moon drops from the moon pool... ok that just made me seem like a freakin junkie... my god it just occurred to me that those fuckin glow freinds are a bunch of freakin alcoholics with their moon shine... fuckin a holes hahahhahahaha....

ok am i ever screwed or what.... santa... u better believe it!